Why I make mistakes

I think I fail for one of two reasons.

1.) I see a girl I like, but I lose confidence somewhere along the way.
2.) I see a girl I don't like initially, and I use it as excuse to leave when things don't go well.

I won't spend much time talking about #1 since everyone else writes about this. With the hard practice, discipline, and reflections I am promising myself to put in, I will learn to overcome reason #1.

Reason #2 is much more obscure, but quite significant. Seeing a girl I like happens to me once a week at the most. Most of the time when I see a woman, I decide in my mind that she is not worth the effort. I think this is actually an excuse I make to myself to backwards rationalize my own failure. See, everyone has something beautiful inside them, and it is my job to find out what that is. If I can just learn to open up a woman to her fullest potential, I'll never find anything sexy about her. If I can't find anything interesting or sexy about someone, I need to keep prying until she leaves. Often when I find something truely sexy, I forget that moment ago I was thinking I did not want to approach her because she's too old.

I've failed because of reason #2 at least three times so far.
1.) In San Francisco, an Indian woman with a British accent was totally in to me, according to a wing. But she looked in her thirties, and I thought it would be too taboo.
2.) At Borders, I didn't get the phone number of that beautiful woman who was a substitute teacher. I almost didn't approach her because she looked so mature, but I bet she is actually younger than I.
3.) Today at Borders, travel section again. I seriously think she was loitering in the same spot just to see where the interaction would go. But there were too many lulls in the conversation-- plus she looked older than I was and I had to go to the bathroom. Excuses excuses. I ended up making a sexy blond curly haired lady very disapointed for not continuing the interaction. She eventually excused herself.

THE MORAL of THIS STORY: BE MORE OUTGOING WITH EVERYONE! I cannot afford to wait for the special someone. Women can surprise me in more ways than one if I just keep at it. A woman who was too old a minute ago is now sexy... and sexually interested. If nothing else, avoiding reason #2 will help me stay in practice so when that once-a-week girl comes along, I won't mistake because of reason #1. New Years Resolution: Hook up with a thirty something.